"Thinspiration"

How does this picture make you feel?
Shocked?
Disgusted?
Jealous?
Indifferent?
Inferior?

I know there are a lot of women and girls out there who would answer "jealous" or "inferior" that the girls in this image are something to aspire to. A lot who would consider this image to be inspiration for thinness or "thinspiration" as it is often referred to.
For me this image threw up a lot of conflicting feelings and I ended up staring at it for a long time.
It's not the popular model Abbey Lee in the foreground, staring provocatively at the camera that grabbed me, but more the model behind her, whose mind looks as if to be far away. Abbey Lee is slim sure, but nothing unnatural or forced, a lot of women are her size naturally. The model behind her though, looks nothing short of starved.
I am not here to judge. I'm not going to parade around saying starving yourself is wrong and that looking to these models for inspiration is immoral, or that the models themselves are bad role models. Nor am I saying it is right, and that manifesting low self esteem in what is effectively mutilation is a healthy thing to do.
Personally, I can see both sides of the argument. As a child I was a horrendously picky eater, I didn't eat a great deal, not even as a baby. Throughout my entire primary school years I looked underfed, pale skin, twig like limbs, dark eyes. In my early teens I began to eat a lot more but became aware of eating disorders and media influence. By 15 I was depressed and self medicated with starvation, alcohol, drugs, sex and self mutilation, nothing extreme, I was always conscious of hiding these things, but enough to make a difference. By 17 I was a lot more confident and self accepting, I still had self destructive hiccups, but I was generally a lot more of a positive person. I was also infatuated with food. Cooking often and eating whatever I wanted, although my obsessive tendencies towards food often manifested themselves in the form of being a health obsessive. Then I got approached by a modelling agency.
Modelling was something I'd wanted to do since a child, not because of seeing beautiful women and media influences, but because being a tall and skinny child, people were often telling me I should model. Throughout my early teens I was approached several times by top agencies but nothing came of it. This time was different, after going to a test shoot I was put on their books. I sort of went into overdrive. Thinking I was now under pressure to constantly look good the cycle of food obsession quickly began. Breaking down from the pressure that was purely put on me by myself I began to breakdown often. When I got my photos back from my portfolio shots I shoved them in a draw and vowed never to look at them again.
Now I feel I may be ready. Whilst at first the concotion of imagery like the above, self doubt and other feelings sent me into a wobbly and I was triggered again a little, I brought myself back around. Now I ask the question, why do images like this make me think I need to be like this? Because I don't, I think I know that deep down.

Like a lot of people, I am not immune to the pressures of a industry full of over edited images. I just try and keep a level head.